Saturday, June 4, 2011

How to have fun on a Saturday night

How to have fun on a Saturday night: hang out with me and Keri.
Because we do fun things.
Like go bike and roller blade shopping.
At Target: use bikes to get around


You can also use them to shop

But be careful not to use the breaks too quick because you could fall off

You could practice figure skating moves using roller blades

You can also try on a ring that's actually too small and get it stuck on your finger...and have to use lotion to get it off. It's not at all embarrassing....

At Big 5: you can sit in a really large chair

(it's actually really comfy)

You can also play on the exercise equipment, practice more figure skating moves with different roller blades, throw around a pink baseball, try on baseball gloves and walk away wishing you could watch a baseball game.

And that is how you have fun on a Saturday night.

Thursday, June 2, 2011

the PERFECT man

So I don't know if all the men in Utah are on the same cycle or what but my friends and I have managed to get involved with men who make me want to put my foot in their asses.
It's not fair. My friends are incredible. What guy out there wouldn't want to be with them?! Seriously. Boys, you should consider yourselves lucky if any of my friends decide to take a moment of their precious time to even look at you.
I've thought about all the things my friends have said about these boys, all the things that frustrate them or make them feel bad. And I've thought about the all the guys in my life, all the things that frustrated/frustrate me and all the things that have/do make me feel bad.
I longed to be closer to my Father in Heaven.
Because He is the PERFECT man.
He doesn't make me feel worse about myself.
He doesn't think I'm annoying because I stress.
He doesn't make me feel stupid when I cry.
He doesn't interrupt me when I'm talking.
He doesn't ignore me.
He doesn't take advantage of me when I'm weak.
He doesn't text me - therefore I'm never waiting by my phone.
He doesn't judge me when I analyze everything I say and do.
He knows I'm not perfect (even though I am) and He loves me anyway.
He listens to everything I say and everything I don't say.
He has patience with me and doesn't make me feel bad about it.
He is never too busy.
He never says stupid things.
He sends angels to help me when He can't be there.
He gives me more than I deserve.
He never lets me down.

Wednesday, June 1, 2011

"Stressful people are annoying"

Didn't you know? Apparently stressful people are annoying.
Am I annoying?
Because I stress...a lot.

I don't know if you remember the last time my store manager went out of town. She left me in charge of the store and put me in charge of the floorset. We all managed to survive. The store didn't burn down, no major problems occurred, and I didn't fall apart. Remember when she came back? All I heard for like 3 days was everything that I did wrong. Not that I'm already hard on myself. Needless to say that experience scared me.

Guess what I found out today! My manager is going out of town for a WHOLE ENTIRE WEEK. I'm going to die.

Not only will she be gone a whole week but I'm in charge of another floorset. And I get to run the store WHILE going to school. The assistant manager is pregnant and due in 2 months. The other sales lead lives in Salt Lake and doesn't have a working car. Not to mention that our district manager is concerned that our store manager will be gone for so long. She doesn't think we can handle it.

Just shoot me now.

So not only am I stressed but I'm hormonal and ticked off. This is going to be a great week I know it!

Just let me vent for a second - it's okay for me to be stressed right? I like to have control and so I stress about things I have no control over. Stupid I know. I do like a little bit of stress in my life. But there are times when I tend to go a little overboard and freak out, maybe even panic for a second. But that doesn't mean that I can't handle it. I served a mission in Germany. I can do hard things. I just happen to stress while in the process.
[My poor future husband. Trust me, I know I'm nuts]

Friday, May 20, 2011

I love shoes

I love shoes.

Not all shoes.

Just certain ones.

I like the way certain shoes look.

I also like the way they make me feel.

But I'm still trying to find my perfect pair of shoes...

About a month ago I decided to try a certain pair of shoes. These shoes were cute, not really my usual style, but I thought I'd give them a try. I wore them once to dinner. I had fun. But after wearing them a couple more times I realized that they were comfortable sometimes and other times they just didn't feel right. I decided to stop wearing them.

A few weeks ago I found another pair of shoes. These shoes are very nice to look at. I wear them to church. These are flirty shoes. I like that. I think I'm going to keep wearing them for a while...

Around the same time I found the flirty shoes, I found another pair. This pair is cute and comfortable. I wear them to school. I'm not sure if these shoes make me feel old though. We'll see how these shoes work out...

HOME

Ok so I realize that it's been a while since I've posted anything. My life has been CRAZY. Seriously. But I don't have to work for 3 whole days! So I'll try and catch up on some posts :)
I flew HOME a few weeks ago and stayed for a whole entire week! It was bliss! Could life have been better? I submit that it could not!
Here are some pictures of what I did:

Family dinner at Gramma and Gramper's house - included blowing and poping bubbles outside on the deck - there was also some Justin Bieber songs sung at the kids table. I may or may not have been apart of that...




Babysitting my boys:

I asked them what their favorite part of Despicable Me was....

They both said: "The FART GUN!"

I wasn't surprised.

I made the most adorable ruffle pillow! And I actually helped make it!



Played with Sydney:

I was petting her while we were on the couch and she did something she's never done before: I stopped petting her and she turned and looked at me, and she started opening and closing her mouth like she was trying to speak to me. She did that every time I stopped petting her. I think she was trying to tell me not to stop petting her


Family pictures:
We're laughing in this one because Adam farted...




I also:
went to dinner with my friend Erin
shopped in Seattle with mom and gramma
had dinner at my aunt and uncle's house
saw Jane Eyre with mom and gramma
went to early morning Seminary - once
sat around with nothing to do
watched a couple episodes of ALIAS with dad
watched Despicable Me twice
ate lots of chips
slept in
one day I didn't even get dressed

and I left wishing I didn't have to go back to life....

Tuesday, April 26, 2011

Family Fun

K so these pictures are a little late - but my Mom, Dad, and brother David came to visit last month. Dad and Dave stayed for the weekend and Mom stayed a few days extra ;)





Wednesday, April 13, 2011

Talk on Faith

A couple weeks ago I gave a talk in church about FAITH. I thought you guys might enjoy reading my notes:

The Apostle Paul teaches us that “faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen” (Hebrews 11:1). The Prophet Alma tells us that if we have faith it means that we “hope for things which are not seen, which are true” (Alma 32:21). In True to the Faith we learn that “Faith is a principle of action and power…You show your hope for something that you cannot yet see.”
Did you notice a similar phrase in each of those definitions? They all said something along the lines that one has faith in something not seen.

Our faith should be centered on our Savior, Jesus Christ. We have faith that He atoned for our sins, that He knows and understands everything that happens in our lives. We have faith that because of Him and His Atonement we can one day live forever with our families in the Kingdom of God. We have faith that He is in control – that even though we cannot see our future, He knows all, and we can trust in His promises. Alma 36:3 teaches us that, “whosoever shall put their trust (or if I may say, ‘faith’) in God shall be supported in their trials, and their troubles, and their afflictions, and shall be lifted up at the last day.”

When I think of faith, I think of the scripture found in Proverbs 3:5-6, “Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct thy paths.”

For me, the most difficult part about having faith is having faith in things I cannot see, like the future – in particular, my future.

I wonder if any of you can relate to what I currently struggle with:
I have been a faithful member of the Church my whole life. I’m by no means perfect but I feel like I have done my best to do everything my Heavenly Father has asked me to do.
Despite the fact that I continue to do my best, I have never felt more alone or lost. I constantly ask myself what am I doing with my life? I have goals that I’m trying to work towards but I feel as if they are completely out of my control. I feel like I’m in the middle of a maze in the dark. I can’t see behind me and I cannot for the life of me figure out what I’m suppose to be doing or where I’m suppose to go.

I read a talk given by President Uchtdorf entitled, “Continue in Patience.” He said, “Often the deep valleys of our present will be understood only by looking back on them from the mountains of our future experiences. Often we can’t see the Lord’s hand in our lives until long after trials have passed. Often the most difficult times of our lives are essential building blocks that form the foundation of our character and pave the way to future opportunity, understanding, and happiness.”

How many times in my life have I experienced this? Like only a million times! I think about the experiences that I had on my mission and while I was going through them I’d think to myself, “why is this happening?! I’m doing everything I can so why do I feel so lost and confused?!” And only looking back on those experiences can I see what Heavenly Father was doing to me in helping define who I am.

How many times have I learned that being righteous doesn’t exempt me from hard times? And how often do we see that in the scriptures? Take Joseph for example: here is a righteous young man who is hated by his brothers, eventually sold as a slave, then when things start to look good, Potiphar’s wife gets him in trouble for keeping the commandments and gets him thrown into prison. By this point I’d have thrown in the towel and been done. But Joseph continues to have faith in the Lord and the Lord rewards him for his obedience and he has the opportunity to work for the Pharaoh and ends up being the key to saving his family from famine. And all of the sudden everything is clear to him and he sees and understands why all those trials had to happen.

My favorite movies are ones with happy endings. There always seems to be a pattern in these movies: the main character is just living their lives, they have hopes and dreams for the future, things they are working towards. All of the sudden something goes wrong or gets in the way of their hopes and dreams. Sometimes things get better but usually things get worse. And when the main character is just about to lose hope – a miracle happens and then everything turns out and their hopes and dreams come true. As I watch these movies I always wonder why the character is so full of despair. If they could just hold on for a little bit longer, everything will turn out alright. It’s because I can see what they can’t. Also because I’ve been the movie already and know how it ends.

But I wonder if Heavenly Father is like this sometimes with us. He can see what we don’t see. He has the bigger picture. We don’t know what the future has in store for us, but He does. We just can’t lose faith in Him and His promises. Because Heavenly Father always keeps His promises. True to the Faith teaches us that, “When trials come, faith can give you strength to press forward and face your hardships with courage. Even when the future seems uncertain, your faith in the Savior can give you peace.”

Having faith in the Lord isn’t always easy – because we can’t see what He can. But I can testify that as we trust in Him, and continue forward in faith, that the Savior will give us peace, and everything will turn out alright.

I looked up the word FAITH in German and was surprised to see that the dictionary had two words to define FAITH: the first one is Glaube. Which is the literal translation for Faith. The other word is: Vertrauen. Which in English means: confidence, trust, faith. Faith is having trust and confidence in Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ that they will fulfill their promises.

Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ love us. They want us to be happy. They want to grant us our righteous desires. They want us to fulfill our hopes and dreams. What is important and matters to us, is important and matters a great deal to Them. They want the very best for us. In fact, they KNOW what is the very best for us. I have trust and confidence that what happens in my life, happens that the time most beneficial to me in helping me grow into the woman that Heavenly Father and Jesus want me to be.

I have faith “That all these things shall give [me] experience, and shall be for [my] good” (D&C 122:7). “Wherefore, if God so clothe the grass of the field, which today is, and tomorrow is cast into the oven, even so will he clothe you, if ye are not of little faith…But seek ye first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things shall be added unto you. Take therefore no thought for the morrow, for the morrow shall take thought for the things of itself…” (3 Nephi 13:30, 33-34).