I Feel Pretty/Unpretty

This is the version that played on TV for anyone who watched this Glee episode. I pasted the lyrics from the whole song though because they didn't show the second verse. That one is my favorite.

I wish I could tie you up in my shoes, make you feel unpretty too
I was told I was beautiful, but what does that mean to you ?
Look into the mirror who’s inside there ?
The one with the long hair
Same old me again today

My outsides are cool, my insides are blue
Everytime I think I’m through it’s because of you
I’ve tried different ways but it’s all the same
At the end of the day I have myself to blame
I’m just trippin’

You can buy your hair if it won’t grow
You can fix your nose if he says so
You can buy all the make-up that M.A.C. can make
But if you can’t look inside you
Find out:
Who am I to be in a position to make me feel so damn unpretty?

I feel pretty, oh so pretty
I feel pretty and witty and bright

Never insecure until I met you now I’m being stupid
I used to be so cute to me
Just a little bit skinny
Why do I look to all these things to keep you happy?
Maybe get rid of you and then I’ll get back to me

My outsides look cool, my insides are blue
Everytime I think I’m through it’s because of you
I’ve tried different ways but it’s all the same
At the end of the day I have myself to blame
Keep on trippin’

You can buy your hair if it won’t grow
You can fix your nose if he says so
You can buy all the make-up that M.A.C. can make
But if you can’t look inside you
Find out:
Who am I to be in a position to make me feel so damn unpretty ?

I feel pretty, oh so pretty
I feel pretty and witty and bright
And I pity any girl who isn't me tonight

I feel pretty (You can buy your hair if it won’t grow)
Oh so pretty (You can fix your nose if he says so)
I feel pretty and witty and bright (You can buy all the make-up that M.A.C. can make)
But if you can’t look inside you
Find out:
Who am I to be in a position to make me feel so damn unpretty?

I feel pretty but unpretty

Happy Father's Day!

Today is Father's Day

This is by far my FAVORITE picture of me and my Dad. This was taken at the SeaTac airport just as I came home from my mission. It was the first time I had seen my Dad in 18 months, a whole year and a half.



I love Frank Sinatra because Daddy loved him first. He used to sing Frank Sinatra to me when I was baby. Every time I hear the song, "The Way You Look Tonight" I can't help but think of my Dad.

I love to sing because Daddy loved to first. He encouraged me to take singing lessons. My FAVORITE times spent with my Dad have been when we're singing together at the piano.

I love to play soccer because Daddy loved to first. He played soccer for BYU in college. I kept playing because I wanted to make him proud and because he'd come to my games. I remember watching a home video of me playing soccer. This is how it went: Dad is filming me. I'm on defense. I'm doing kart wheels and dancing around. Dad is yelling at me to pay attention. Also when I ran, I had like this girly dance run where I pointed my toes. I can only imagine his frustration. He was taking it seriously and I was dancing around. bwahaha

I love scary upside-down roller coaster amusement park rides because Daddy liked them first. I remember when we lived in CA and we went to the city fair and there were amusement rides. I remember that Dad really wanted to go on this one ride that went upside-down. He tried so hard to get one of the boys to go but they were too scared. I wanted to impress him so I told him that I would go with him. I don't think I'd ever been so scared! But I went anyway because I wanted Dad to be impressed that I would do it and the boys wouldn't. I love those kinds of rides!

I love action-packed superhero guy movies because Dad loved them first. I remember one year for his birthday Dad wanted to go see the mid-night showing of Pirates 2. So I bought the tickets and he drove. We sat in line and talked. I have a hard time going to see those kinds of movies without him.

I love Alias (TV show) because Dad found it first. We bonded over that show. No TV show will ever be able to take it's place. We named our dog after the main character.

I love seminary because Dad loved it first. Dad LOVES teaching seminary. Of course the year or two before I started seminary Dad was released from being a seminary teacher. I was so ticked. I wanted Dad to be my seminary teacher so freaking bad! I woke myself up every morning to go to early morning seminary for four years. I wouldn't miss a day. I knew how important seminary was to Dad, I couldn't let him down.

I love the temple because Dad loved it first. He attends the temple once every week and has for years. When I went through the temple I knew that I was suppose to go every week because that's what Dad did. I now have my own testimony of the importance of temple work.

I love the gospel of Jesus Christ because Dad loved it first. Growing up I knew that church needed to be number one in my life because it was in Dad's. I read my scriptures every night and said my prayers because I knew that's just what you do. My testimony developed and is constantly strengthened because I learned those principles early on in my life.

I love my Savior because Dad loved Him first. I don't know if my Dad will every understand what his example and testimony has done for me. I charish those times I heard him bare his testimony of the Savior while he was bishop. I've seen the Atonement work in his life as he's let the Savior mold him into the man he is today.

I love my Dad because he loved me first.

Happy Father's Day Daddy.

I love you.

How to have fun on a Saturday night

How to have fun on a Saturday night: hang out with me and Keri.
Because we do fun things.
Like go bike and roller blade shopping.
At Target: use bikes to get around


You can also use them to shop

But be careful not to use the breaks too quick because you could fall off

You could practice figure skating moves using roller blades

You can also try on a ring that's actually too small and get it stuck on your finger...and have to use lotion to get it off. It's not at all embarrassing....

At Big 5: you can sit in a really large chair

(it's actually really comfy)

You can also play on the exercise equipment, practice more figure skating moves with different roller blades, throw around a pink baseball, try on baseball gloves and walk away wishing you could watch a baseball game.

And that is how you have fun on a Saturday night.

the PERFECT man

So I don't know if all the men in Utah are on the same cycle or what but my friends and I have managed to get involved with men who make me want to put my foot in their asses.
It's not fair. My friends are incredible. What guy out there wouldn't want to be with them?! Seriously. Boys, you should consider yourselves lucky if any of my friends decide to take a moment of their precious time to even look at you.
I've thought about all the things my friends have said about these boys, all the things that frustrate them or make them feel bad. And I've thought about the all the guys in my life, all the things that frustrated/frustrate me and all the things that have/do make me feel bad.
I longed to be closer to my Father in Heaven.
Because He is the PERFECT man.
He doesn't make me feel worse about myself.
He doesn't think I'm annoying because I stress.
He doesn't make me feel stupid when I cry.
He doesn't interrupt me when I'm talking.
He doesn't ignore me.
He doesn't take advantage of me when I'm weak.
He doesn't text me - therefore I'm never waiting by my phone.
He doesn't judge me when I analyze everything I say and do.
He knows I'm not perfect (even though I am) and He loves me anyway.
He listens to everything I say and everything I don't say.
He has patience with me and doesn't make me feel bad about it.
He is never too busy.
He never says stupid things.
He sends angels to help me when He can't be there.
He gives me more than I deserve.
He never lets me down.

"Stressful people are annoying"

Didn't you know? Apparently stressful people are annoying.
Am I annoying?
Because I stress...a lot.

I don't know if you remember the last time my store manager went out of town. She left me in charge of the store and put me in charge of the floorset. We all managed to survive. The store didn't burn down, no major problems occurred, and I didn't fall apart. Remember when she came back? All I heard for like 3 days was everything that I did wrong. Not that I'm already hard on myself. Needless to say that experience scared me.

Guess what I found out today! My manager is going out of town for a WHOLE ENTIRE WEEK. I'm going to die.

Not only will she be gone a whole week but I'm in charge of another floorset. And I get to run the store WHILE going to school. The assistant manager is pregnant and due in 2 months. The other sales lead lives in Salt Lake and doesn't have a working car. Not to mention that our district manager is concerned that our store manager will be gone for so long. She doesn't think we can handle it.

Just shoot me now.

So not only am I stressed but I'm hormonal and ticked off. This is going to be a great week I know it!

Just let me vent for a second - it's okay for me to be stressed right? I like to have control and so I stress about things I have no control over. Stupid I know. I do like a little bit of stress in my life. But there are times when I tend to go a little overboard and freak out, maybe even panic for a second. But that doesn't mean that I can't handle it. I served a mission in Germany. I can do hard things. I just happen to stress while in the process.
[My poor future husband. Trust me, I know I'm nuts]