Old Maid

"Jane will be quite an old maid soon, I declare. She is almost three and twenty! Lord, how ashamed I should be of not being married before three and twenty!"

My name is Rach and sometimes I am ashamed of not being married before three and twenty.

Yesterday at work I met a woman who is LDS (surprise) but she asked me how old I was. I had to think for a minute - because I had honestly forgotten how old I was - then I remembered and (shamefully) replied that I am 24 years old. First of all, when did that happen?! Secondly, I shouldn't be ashamed to admit that I'm 24 years old, but I am sometimes because I feel like people will then look at my left hand and find it completely empty. No 'ring'.

I blame it on our culture. Even though the quote from the beginning of this post was written by Jane Austen in a time completely different in almost every way from the times we are living in, I feel like our little Mormon culture hasn't changed in that respect.

Most of the time I am proud to say that I am 24 and NOT married. I don't need to be married to be happy. I enjoy being on my own - I mean, come on, once I'm married it'll be for eternity. That's like a really long time. I might as well be single and enjoy it because marriage will be forever long.

But there are those times when I feel like people are judging me! Like there's something wrong with me because I'm 24 and not married. Do you know what that's like, living in a culture where people think that there could be something wrong with you because you aren't married yet? I know I'm probably being a little paranoid and like everyone pays that close attention to my life. But I do feel like an old maid sometimes.

Freak, I'm turning 25 this year. Do you know what that means? It means that in another 5 years I'll be 30. Not that there's anything wrong with getting older, it's just a little scary. I still feel like I'm 18 - I know nothing and everything at the same time.

I'm just trying to say that there isn't anything wrong with me because I'm almost 25 and NOT married! I try really hard to do what Heavenly Father wants me to do. If He wanted me to be married right now, I'd be married. Obviously now is not the time.

:D So bring on all the cute guys and let me flirt away!

Plus, it's all about how young you feel (and act) right??

Let's change things up a bit...

A couple weeks ago I decided to get my hair done. Lucky for me the person who does my hair happens to be my friend Jordyn!
Here's a before picture:


I decided that I wanted light brown and auburn highlights. After applying the colors and letting my hair sit, Jordyn washed it out and guess what....my hair went blonde! After a slight panic attack on my part and two attempts to fix it, my hair finally darken a bit and I'm not blonde!
Here's the after picture:


So I got to spend the day with my friend and change things up a bit with more color in my hair :D

WHAT ARE YOU THINKING?! / Dear UTAH...

Have you ever been in a situation where you know of something that's about to happen, someone is making a decision, and you can already see the outcome of that decision?

And all you do is think to yourself (or you're like me and you talk out loud to yourself): "WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU THINKING?! ARE YOU USING YOUR BRAIN?!? DO YOU EVEN HAVE ONE?!?!?"

But there isn't anything you can do about it. So you just sit back and wait for the disaster that you know is coming to happen. And when it comes you confirm to yourself that you were right, that person has no brain.

It frustrates me when this happens.

I wish people would use their brain and think. That's why we have them people!

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Dear UTAH,
I would like to place some of the blame of this upcoming disaster on you. See, your air is slightly lacking in oxygen. True, your elevation is higher which means less oxygen in comparison to somewhere perfect like, Seattle. However, I feel that there is even less oxygen than normal because there is so much polution in the air.
Have you ever noticed that when you rain, you rain dirt? That is polution falling from your sky. And your rain smells like wet dog instead of normal, clean rain, like in Seattle.
To sum up, you really need to do something about the polution because it causes the air to contain less oxygen which is causing the people who live here brain damage.
You really should try and be more like Washington State.
Please stop causing people to make stupid decisions.
RACH
a Washingtonian for LIFE